UberT-Blog v6.0 RC1

A little insight to what has made me dissappear and disconnect. No, its not ‘HER’.

There’s a silence surroundiing me
I can’t seem to think straight
I’ll sit in the corner
No one can bother me
I think I should speak now
I can’t seem to speak now
My words won’t come out right
I feel like I’m drowning
I’m feeling weak now
But I can’t show my weakness
I sometimes wonder
Where do we go from here

It doesn’t have to be like this
All we need to do is make sure we keep talking.

Go, figure.

This shall change with the sunrise after the next….

Tu To Nahin Hai Lekin Teri Muskurahat Hai
Chehra Tera Nahin Hai Par Teri Aahatein Hai
Tu Hai Kahan Kahan Hai ,Tera Nishaan Kahan Hai
Mera Jahan Kahan Hai
Main Adhoora Tu Adhoori Ji Rahi Hai
E Ajnabi ….

And hence, cryptic posts have made a comeback…

They always said life teaches you things. Things about people. About behaviour. About attitudes. Things I always pooh poohed. Philosophical shit that never interested me. Then came a time, people started throwing shit at me, latest being about a minute before I wrote this. Now, I realise mistakes I made. Now I realise I what a fake existence I am being made to live. How self centered people are. Read it all..

May 8th - Sep 1st: - I’ve had people giving me opinions. Extreme concerns. Tonnes of unacceptable advice even (not necessarily valuable). People giving me their twopence, irrespective of whether they were asked or not. People wondering if what I was doing was ‘right‘, in their limited frame of reference. The time has come. To prove them wrong. To prove I was right. To prove that patience pays. I’m doing what I like. The first step to being independent. Took whatever shit was thrown at me, in my stride. Finally, freedom. No reliance on anyone (pun intended). No more guilt. No more tripe from anyone, even minutely known to me.

Here I am, this is me. I have evolved, again. I’m standing on the threshold. I don’t know of what. Things are looking up, are they?

I agree. I was very argumentative. I wanted things to happen MY way. Everytime. I had set rules. I expected people to follow them. I used to get ticked off, if people did not. I wanted stuff to be as “planned’ as possible. Not that I used to blow up in People’s faces. But after 100 patient explanations, yeah, I did blow up.

Then, that day dawned. I thought long. Hard even. I wanted things Read it all..

Deep relation. I can relate. COMPLETELY.

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within Read it all..

This is not good. I’m beginning to hate people. No, not specific people. General humans. Men. Women. Their attitudes. Their behaviour. Their selfishness. Their ego. Everywhere around me. I’m beginning to hate conversation. I’m sick of hypocrisy. I’m sick of the ‘What I’ve done in life is the right thing to do’ attitude. I’m scared Read it all..

What should be the average length of a blog post? I’ve always wondered how long my posts should be, before the sporadic readers I have here get bored and stop coming back for more, for lack of ’sensible’ content. Personally, there are few blogs that captivate me, and compel me Read it all..

About two months ago, I came back from the UK. Life there was a different cup of tea altogether, with a limited set of friends, limited people to interact with, limited funds and the likes. As I landed back into the country, I was relieved. My cellphone would ring more than 20 times a day again, with the same old numbers of Read it all..

Not the most desirable 2nd post on a blog this, but this one came right from my heart when I wrote it. An excerpt from the farewell Read it all..

The lesser said about this, the better. What my very close friend Megha wrote in my Orkut Testimonial incidentally happens to be so accurate, I thought that should Read it all..