Life has been through a zillion changes, most of them spontaneously forcing me to think if I was living life the way it must be lived.
I’ve realised the need to look deep into myself, iron out many niggling, ridiculous, borderline insane traits in my behaviourial patterns. The virtues of patience, or the vices of the antonym have suddenly dawned upon me.

People will criticize you, ridicule you, say things KNOWING you will not like them and will do things, perhaps intentionally, knowing that you would be upset. Perhaps, its my fault. Perhaps, I need to find a way to circumvent such behaviour. Perhaps, I need to find a way to channelise these feelings out of my mind. Perhaps, I need to re evaluate my behaviour, and appreciate what has been bestowed upon me. Perhaps, I need to control my temper too, irrespective of the fact that when I’ve tried to be nice and tell the same things in a proper and respectful manner, my talk seems to always fall on deaf ears.

I need a vent. I cannot speak to people about this, though I know of a certain person(s) who will always be ready to help me. This blog shall be that vent. There will be many obscure, cryptic, password protected posts. Writing seems to be a solution. It makes me feel better. Why online, one may ask.
Who knows, perhaps a select few will get to read those posts, sometime in the future.

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